Ash to Trash

You know, I never thought I'd manage to pull myself together and actually pass everything that had to be passed in order to move on to the second year, but I did. Hooray! Of course, two days ago I found out that I wouldn't get my student loan because I didn't have enough credits from last year. Only, I had. I checked. And double-checked. And checked another five times. So when I spoke to the guidance counselor she couldn't get it either and it turned out it was a mistake and now I will get the loan. Hooray! Mostly because I really don't wanna spend another day in paintword. I think I'd kill myself if I had do. At the visit to the counselor I did find out another funny thing though. Apparently there was one exam that I didn't pass. I got a mail about having passed it at the beginning of the summer, but apparently I hadn't. Lovely. It's not a big deal, but then again - nothing's a big deal these days. I'm on a constant high really. Anyway, point is that I have to take the exam again. A third time. Hrm, where have I seen that before? Such a dèja-vu feeling here... [insert dramatic music]. I have to admit that I'm rather glad I found out now and not at the beginning of the summer because I think that would've broken my gentle spirit. (When are you gonna learn that it's my entry and my rules?) Yea, I know - it shouldn't happen in the first place, that's just really sucky, but oh well. Might aswell just bite the sour apple and do it again... mmm... sour apple...

Did I tell you about my hibiscus? I did, right? It's corall-coloured and lovely. And it's blooming! Waking up in the morning and seeing the flowers just makes me so incredibly happy. I know, I'm easily satisfied.

Some times I wonder if I take on too much. I'm studying my second year and every trip to and from the university is four hours in total. On top of that I'm also studying religion which I've wanted to do for ages and I play computer games and pretend to be supercool. Something obviously has to go, but which? Oh, the horrors of decisionmaking. Or... or maybe I just try to see how long I can keep it up? Yes... yes, I'll do that...