Burn baby, burn!

I am amazing with words. I really am. It's a gift someone in the creational process felt that I deserved. Unfortunately sometimes I tend to use the words against myself. Like when I make up excuses not to do things. I'm really good with those too. That's not a gift though, that's a curse and once you start it's very hard to stop. "I don't want to" becomes "I don't have to because I can do it this way instead" and once you start believing that you actually can, you'll have major problems going back.
I've had a motivational problem for quite some time now and I've been telling myself that I don't have to go to the lectures because I can just read the same thing out of the book. The thing here isn't that I can't do that - because I actually can - it's that I don't do it. Between you and me I actually didn't have an idea about why until just a few hours ago. Winter depression. I get that every year and it starts when it begins to get dark early. I can't believe I didn't recognise the signs - suppose it came too gradually (usually it just hits me in the face). So now that I know why I feel like shit for no reason I'm gonna treat it like I always do - trying to get as much out of the day as possible and enjoying the darkness with tea and candles and such. You see, my problem with the winter isn't that it's cold, it's that I get very tired as soon as it gets dark outside. (And yes, that was another excuse for being lazy and lacking self-discipline.) More light to the people!

/Anna: your torch in the cave

Ps: "Protective hand salve" (or however that's spelled) is "skyddande handsalva" in Swedish and "suojaava käsisalva" in Finnish. How can Finland be a part of the Northern countries? That's just really silly.