lifeless

Eyes. Dead eyes. In a whole down where the wall meets the floor. That's what I dreamt of. I remember going into the toilet and seeing a bunch of small green bugs on the walls. Since I'm not a fan of bugs I took a piece of toiletpaper and started wiping the bugs off. When I took the third I also got a tiny part of the wall with me. Of course that was perfectly alright (since dreams are a bit odd and flying tigers covered in apples would be normal but a book in a bookshelf would scare the hell out of you), but then I saw a ball in the whole that was left. I looked closer and saw that there was a hole in the back of the ball. That's a bit odd. After looking some more I realised that it was a dead eye. I then saw another dead eye on a shelf in the bathroom. That's when I decided to listen to my body and wake up for real.

According to dream lexicons (which are usually a bunch of crap anyway) eyes symbolises people and their inner dreams and desires. They also represent feelings and we all know that eyes are the mirror to the soul. In my case the eye was dead. Would that mean that I am dead? Because I'm fairly sure that I'm not. (A quick check for pulse made sure that I am very much alive.) Have a part of me died? (Another quickie of waving limbs got rid of that assumption.) No, I think it might have something to do with my university-application-result. I got placed on the reserve list for my first choice. It should hurt, but it really doesn't - this doesn't change anything in my plans - and I did get accepted to two other choices I had so that's always something. I don't know... Maybe these dead eyes represent a choice I had to make and that path is now dead to me.

Time to visit Copenhagen again tonight - Britney Spears is entering the Park. It's quite funny actually - one of my friends sent me a hardrock-cover of one of her songs and I asked her why she'd send that to me. She told me that it was good and I answered that I was a Britneyfan so it didn't really suit me. My friend apologised because I am so normal usually that she forgets things like this. I found it hilarious. Another friend at work said the same thing yesterday. Well, actually she said "but you're so normal and then you say something like this!" - haha, poor people. Anyway, I'm really looking forward to this. It'll be a blast!